you were my first...i will miss you...very much!
today, i reflected our friendship...the memories we have shared since our childhood. we grew up together. how you sat behind me during class and how vain you were with your 'body shop' perfumed bubble then, the stars origami i helped you fold to fill your jar of love for your crush, the occasional pizza break we bought and headed to the beach just to steal a moment to breath, the yoghurt which i refused to buy for you when we were in australia...i remembered it all.
i remembered when we had our usual dinner at marche whenever i'm down to visit...we always spoke about dying...we agreed, whoever passed on first will inform the other part in dreams. we also agreed, if we were not married by 35, we will marry each other if necessary, but live separate lives...
i want to write all these down so that i will never ever forget you...i know i won't because you will have a special place in my heart.
i pray that you will no longer suffer...and that god the almighty one will carry you in his arms. i don't know how much longer you can hold on...i see you suffering in the hospital bed, i cried every time i see that video...i feel my heart bleed, the sourness, i feel it all...
you were my first best girlfriend,
you were the first i told i am gay,
you were the first whom i shared who my life partner is,
you were my first...
i love you and i will miss you...very, very much...until we meet again, may the lord be with you, my dear best friend. :(
