energy energy energy

for the past two weeks i've been sweating it out. attended numerous energy classes in hope to shed some pounds in time to put them back on again during chinese new year. bakerong!

battle of the dogs

upward dogs and downward dogs are two very distinct poses in yoga. be it during sun salutations or you can use it as a relaxation pose.

life is exactly just like that, upwards and downwards...however, if one is to always focus on downwards, they are subconciously inviting the the downside to life. for me, i prefer to look at the upward of things. be it positive or negative, always good to turn things positive.

indeed, downward dogs can be relaxing but upward dogs helps to build upper body strength too...so, should i relax or should i build strength?

10 best lines to dump someone

1. it's best to be friends
2. maybe we're seeing each other too much
3. sorry, i'm too busy
4. i need to make time for my friends
5. i'm too tired
6. nothing much...really!
7. it's ok, doesn't matter anymore
8. i really don't know
9. i want some of 'my' space
10. let's just move on

for any of the above, prescription poses include the beautiful sun salutation both series a and series b, then try head stand.....to flush the head with more blood so that you stay sane.

namaste

i'm such a fool

i can be such a fool sometimes
falling into pits of slimes
what should i do?
i'm such a fool

i wish i did too...

the following is written by someone whom i care for very much. and i'll leave the rest to your beautiful imagination.

I wish I did -

Your hands
they soothed over my belly,
traversing both down to my waist,
curving my hips,
slowly, lathering my skin,
twas strong yet gentle.

Your finger
A map has been secretly drawn,
All over my quivering naked body.
You have given me your secret.
It is the journey,to the path of your heart.
Where within lies the jewel,
the treasure which I must find.

Your strong arms
came without a sound,
lifted me up gently.
(I never thought you could!)
I was scared at first,
but I clutched onto your body tightly,
I closed my eyes and
I trusted you.
You didn’t say anything.
I hung on to you steadfastly,
like how a baby would do.

A rush of blush!
And a few utter of mindless words
into the careless air...
While we joined hands in unison.
Our hands.

I was to endure a path
Of abominating exposure.
But it’s okay,
We’re all alone.
I’m not shy this time.

How do you describe this feeling?
How can you exactly do that?
Speechless and unable to move,
Time stood still in the room.
All we were left was each other

.................................

The outside world is unaware of us.
So hush, my dear... be quiet for us.

It’s 6am, and I’m awake.
And you're still sleeping.
Outside the world is still grayish,
But lying in bed with you now,
Locked in your arms feels so safe.

I’m peeping at you with semi-closed eyes,
while you were sleeping.
I’m like playing a hide and seek game.
Without you knowing I’m watching.
I’m wondering what you are dreaming about.
You look so peaceful and calm.
I just didn’t want to disturb you
With my sudden movements
Even when I was shivering without a blanket,
I just held onto you more tightly,
Hoping your body can make mine warmer.

You like to hug me when you sleep,
even in your dreams.
you still keep your arms around me as always
It’s as though you’re afraid
I wouldn’t be there anymore when you wake up.

(Hidden Piece)
Our face is so close,
And I can quickly steal a kiss from you
without your knowing
Should I do it?
well...
muaks!
There, I did it. I stole a kiss.
I’m a good thief, aren’t I?
I’m wondering,,Did I pilfered your heart too?
I wish I did,
I wish I did

..........................................

As traces of your scent still wafts,
Where your hands passed.
On my crisp blue shirt to work that morning,
(My darling, do you remember? you were really there
with me the whole day)
In my hair,
On my fingers,
On parts of my skin,
It all smells of you.

Baby,
This time I can’t wait for tonight.
I want you to hold me in your arms,
I want to know if holding you back,
Lying in your warm embrace again,
Feels as real, as it does in my constant dream.

And,
It really is you.

and again... and again...
and again...
and again..

Harvin.14/8/7
This piece etched like a tatoo in my heart.

my wants

this week has been hectic. no time for my practise and very minimal time to juggle my personal time as well. is it all worth it? honestly, i'm not too sure about it. but if i don't strive for it now...i won't want to strive for it in 10 years times. it's now or never.

i want my practise to continue, i want my teachings to go on, i want to earn big, i want a life...i have one!

i'm grateful for my job, i'm grateful for the opportunity given in my practise, i thank god for the good health he's graciously given to me and i thank him for my wonderful family and friends. hugs all!

namaste.

yama niyama...not tiu nia ma lar!

i just got dropped from one outlet because some indian teacher whom they employed insisted on my slot. so, go ahead take my slot. no worries.

shouldn't yoga be part of the yama niyama chain? why are they fighting against each other? weird.

remaining 5 classes per week now. not too bad. let's see how it goes.

namaste.

...???

what should you do with someone who has expressed interest in you but then under his profile indicates his status as "prefer not to say"...hmmmm! i wonder what message "he" is trying to convey.

confused teacher

it's been almost two months since i started teaching. i totally enjoyed it. i have practitioners who enjoy my class and also some who find my teaching a bit on the easy side.

since embarking on the side journey of being a yoga teacher, i realised that we don't usually practise what we preach. we're taught the eight patanjali limbs...or ashtanga (8 limbs) of yoga. two of the most basic limbs are yama and niyama, which transcends as non-violence and no-harm. we're supposed to be accepting everyone for who they are...but why are we segregating into groups of who we like to be around and those whom we don't? this is so conflicting.

happy birthday to me

i'm 30 years old today. it feels big, i've lived for 3 decades...amazing moments i've been through in life but nothing will prepare me to what life will be installed for me in the next 3 decades.

i have always hated birthdays. i dread it, i despise it. but this year, i feel different, i feel at peace with myself. no hatred, no anger...it feels free. i made a choice. i choose to appreciate it, i choose to be happy, i choose to enjoy my birthday.

i'm happy. i'm 30.

abo's back...for now!

you're back!!! i missed your writing. hugs.

had a bad day!

this fucking shit person has got to be the lamest of anyone that i've ever come across. this mathafucker is getting into my nerves. i feel like fisting him and pulling his inside out and stuffing back into this pathetic puny throat!

fuck you!

p/s: i feel much better now. still...fuck you two faced slime ball!

my very first teaching class

i had my very first teaching experience last week. 7 classes in total. my very first class, i was swamped with 45 practitioners...of course, being the "perfecto" me, trying to give everyone equal attention, i realised that i was digging my own grave.

it definately gave me a different perspective towards my practise. i'm now transending information to practitioners through my years of practise. honestly, there is a certain level of stress to it. am i really gonna enjoy this? not sure...gonna go with the flow first.

namaste!

recipe for disaster

ever wondered what to have for dinner...i do, all the time. here's a simple solution to end those midnight hunger pangs or even drive your one night stand partners out of the house...faster than you can say 'fasta pasta baby!'.

it's a recipe for disaster!

ingredients:
- two cups of pasta
- a can of good quality tuna (recommend john west)
- qp mayonaise
- italian mixed herbs
- salt and pepper to taste

oh! and a generous dash of vodka!!!

method:
1. boil pasta...penne and spaghetti used here.

2. once pasta is cooked, put them into a mixing bowl (mixing bowl sounds nicer than the chinese soup bowl). add herbs, salt and pepper. mix well.

3. add qp mayonaise (aka japanese mayo!)

4. last but not lease! a freaking generous amount of vodka...attempted to use blackcurrent flavoured vodka here.

5. walah!!! pasta al dante ala 'lau sai' (go figure what this is) style! guaranteed to churn your stomach upside down.

warning: stay away from open fire...emission of bodily gases are flamable! ensure that toilet bowls are insured! recommend the use of public toilets to minimise clean up.

life begins...on my window sill?

sometime this week, i decided to open a window which was seldom open, just to check if our little 'friends' has layed any eggs. occassionaly, i get two feathered visitors building their little love nest on my window sill and i enjoy taking a stick and just dig into their nest and watch their little eggs fall 3 storeys down and splatter on the ground...sick i know, but they're worst.

as some of you may know or even begin to realise, i am an anal psycho ocd neat freak (ok, i think you get the idea now). these pigeons, they poop everywhere and they 'wake' you up with their annoying croak. i hate them.

and surprise, surprise! instead of seeing the two eggs similarly sized to a quail's egg, two chicks were resting in the nest. they didn't chirp or flatter their featherless wings. of course, i was ever ready with my stick and was really tempted to just dig them out of my window sill...but, consciously, it felt wrong...hey! i'm sanely humane after all!

but on close inpection, don't they look cute? although one does look under nourished. do you think if i constantly leave them bits and pieces of 'tim tams', that would help fattened them up since they (tim tams) does wonders in boosting ones weight?

the next thought that came to mind of course was during the course of my yoga practise, i've been attempting the pigeon pose or kapotasana, it is almost a near impossible pose for me due to my tight hip and knee joints. i'm not god, i don't dictate death or life, but just maybe, by sparing their lives...would i earn enough brownie points to be able to perform kapotasana?

chirp chirp!! chirp chirp chirp!!!

disclaimer note: no birds or chicks were harmed during the entry of this blog...however, their survival are not guarantee 'evil grin'. in case i get sued for animal cruelty...for the record, i am with spca! they too, care for our feathered friends...i hope!

i just got 'outed'

trust my fucking hands to do the typing and my blabber mouth to do the yakking. this time it really did get my ass in hot soup...no freaking minestrone or shark's fin crab meat buddha jump over the wall shit here!

i accidentally left a comment on a colleague's blog...and guess what! it linked to mine! god damn it! my cover instantly dissolved. for a split second i wanted to evaporate from where i was seated.

but you know what, this colleague is more than a colleague to me now. and i hate to lie in between my teeth to her...yes, it's a freaking girl (my senses tell me she's a freaking fag hag...but hey, let's not talk about her here shall we). this 'bitch' whom i labelled when i had my first encounter with, turned out to be this superb angel.

of course she came with a heart so soft and fluffy it puts cotton candy to shame. trust me, men (straight of course) who hasn't got balls of steel, they can just forget about getting close to her...so, hey, guess what, i've got balls of steel (self advertisement for men who are interested in men with balls of steel)...i'm now one of her good friend.

then again, could it be due to my "gayish" nature? fuck it!

no reaction, don't know what to do...professionalism over personal matters.

muacks you evil 'bitch', i love you.

am i a sex addict?

so, what is it like to be promiscuous? have you ever thought of going to a group sex party, i have...many many times. so what if you're there? what are you gonna do? fuck someone, get fucked? but that's one to one sex no? then again, you're doing it with a few more blokes in full view of everyone else. heck! life porn! how apt.

body's been insanely horny of late...constant doses of porn has helped in those late night hungers. hehehe. and thank god for those crazy yoga bends...i'm now able to reach where no man has gone before...woo hoo!

does that make me a sex addict?

certification on its way

coming 1 april, i will officially receive my certification for being a yoga instructor...of course, the beginner's level. so, call me, sign up...i promise i'll give 20% discount. haha.

i have a crush on you!

the thing about falling into crushes is just so funny. you can get into it like a flash and it takes forever for you to come out of it. i wonder why.

i discovered today that a neighbour of mine is realy 'happy'. and apparently he lives a closeted life. hell yeah! one look at him and my 'radar' went bonkers. of course no approach was made but i finally knew someone who knew him and confirmed his sexual orientation (phew! that was a mouthful). so, what now? do i approach him and say hi...of which i think he would have just flipped and faint two storeys down from where he is staying or wait for a formal introduction by my 'friend'.

on the other hand....i have another candidate who is still studying and is already 27 years of age. no offences intended but hey you...shouldn't you be a bit worried about not starting your career since you're close to the big 3-0.

having said that...year 2007, i'm turning big 3-0. there's just so many things i have yet to achieve in life and a quarter of a century has just slipped by. i was just advised by a friend to start cataloging all my possessions. you never know when it's time to go, one should always be prepared for the worst, he said. ding! another thought to ponder for the new year.

i gotta get a grip of my life not to mention getting a grip on the cow pose which i've been ever struggling since i started my practise. i'm not preparing for anything but my current sitch. heck the future and fuck the past...i'm more concern about my present moment.

what's your new year resolution?

the end of 2006 spells the closing of another chapter in my life. it has been very challenging in terms of my practise for yoga as well as my growth, emotional and not to mention physical...yes, a couple of pounds added here and there...but what the heck...who's counting the calories?

what's your new year resolution? asked by a couple of friends on new year's eve. honestly, i don't know. and i don't give a damn. one thing for sure is i'll definately be eating more ice cream. yum! and not to mention practising more asanas. come mid january, i'll be taking up my very first teachers training course. pursue my passion towards this miracle exercise. hopefully, to earn some extra income of course. :)

have a smashing 2007!