2005...a proper closure

2005 has been relatively good to me i must say. of course there has been the occasional hiccups. but how can i complain when i've got a job to get to (which i totally hate), yoga classes to attend (aaahhh...divine), men to oogle at (can see but cannot touch...damn it!), a roof over your head, wheels to get you about and money to keep you going, the lists just goes on and on.

but there was one chapter in my life which i can finally put a proper closure to it. it seems that i've been clinging on to a piece of history which i thought have been safely tucked and sealed away...i was dead wrong. it haunted me for the past two years. feeling of remorse and regret, showered me daily. thoughts of reconciliation so powerful, i swear i thought it partially cooked my 'balls'.

anyway, the new year began with a good conversation...a conversation which should have taken place back then...but like they say...better to have done it then not and regret it. of course the main topic revolved around the agenda of love...the trust, the betrayal, the touch, the feeling. everything was layed clearly out on to the chopping board. we were like doctors performing autopsies on each and every element...but we realized there was no use in analyzing all these elements as we cannot turn back the clock to undo what has been done (although, i would have love very much to do that...but reality check).

so, here i am...locking this chest for good. vowed never to look back for i have new missions for this new year, yoga practices to attend, voluntary work to give, friends to care and people to love. and i'd like to wish my closest friends...the doctor, the prisoner, the librarian (come to think of it...i don't have much friends) a fucking good year ahead! cut crap and smell the coffee will ya!!! life is as shitty as it can get! namaste.