destiny...a fantasy rediscovered

you determine your own destiny...that's what i learnt tonight.

kinda picked it up in a very interesting situation as i was attending this class conducted by a guest instructor from byron bay, new south wales down under. we did our salutations to both the sun and the moon...considering it's full moon today so what the heck...here's one for you madam lunar. and as we were approaching towards the end of the hour and a half of full stretched class, we were told to do the pincha mayarusana (also known as the feathered peacock pose).



looks difficult isn't it...that's what i thought...not till the instructor said, it's all in your mind...the fear is there. and he calmly told us to "fuck everything and run". it's just fear he said. as usual, i was busy trying to lift my heavy butt off to try my very best in achieving the pose. and of course also attempting very hard in trying not to look like a 100 ton hippo doing the hand stand...imagine that will you. finally, achieved it...guess what...it must be the oxygen riched blood which came rushing towards your head thanks to mother nature's gift of gravity...i suddenly felt a tingling feeling...a feeling that there's nothing in my life that i cannot do or achieve...it's all in my hands and in my head.

if i want to feel happy...i need to work on it...and if i continue to stay lost...i shall be lost forever without knowing or at least attempting to give that little push to achieve that "umph" in life...boy...it sure was an interesting feeling. hard to imagine...but quite sureal!

my destiny...right in the palm of my hands...if i fall...i fall...but i can prevent myself from falling...concentration, a little strength and lots of support...mental support...it's all in the head. it's all controlled from the mind...wow!

what a wonderful feeling it is. i feel like a child again...it feels free and light! i'm happy!