it's been a while since i've taken a breather after i've taken up this new job. then again, it's not that new now.
this weekend was good...a total let go. no work to think about, no commitments, just nothing...plain ol'me...just me for myself.
ice cream, dry fried 'hor fun', glass noodles, sushi and sashimis, fries, more ice cream, movies...just chilling out and giving my mental state a good rest.
after years of torment about not being satisfied with my current work scope...and many many months of job searching, i'm finally being given a chance...a chance to break out of my comfort zone to be thrown back into the battle field. it is definately gonna be tough, but i'm all set and fully determined to re-focus and re-channel my energy.
wish me luck!
me : i keep talking to you and trying to get you to answer my prayers...why aren't you answering any of my prayers?
god : i have been listening...all the time, never failed.
me : why are you not talking to me directly...
god : i do...all the time and when i realized you weren't listening, i had to get your attention trhough my angels.
me : i don't understand...help me god! please! help me!
ok, i'm not going to deny, i'm depress! d.e.p.r.e.s.s.....depress! no, not some cheerleading shouts...but i'm just plain depress. not too sure if it's the male version of the so called "pre-menstrual syndrome". but i'm definately feeling yucks right now. i know what the issue is, i just don't know how to deal with it!
anyway, attempted my usual yoga class yesterday hoping that a good workout would help keep my mind off things, unfortunately...couldn't concentrate at all...my teacher was saying that i did not fully commit myself to the pose. that's really bothering me. haven't slept well for a couple of days now...it's a been a week since actually.
what should i do? what should i do?
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hahaha! yes, i've finally succumbed to another temptation of getting myself yet another gadget...yes, it's the new ipod video. a sexy little bastard with gorgeous buttons to turn me on! woo hoo!
yup! still nicely wrapped in its original plastic wrapper. waiting to get a 'condom' for it. can't seem to find good ones.
so next project is to get a good universal docking station so that i can hook it up, download some good meditation music and twist and bend away.
yes...i've been slacking lately. no...not from any love project or any major changes to my life. life is still the same...hasn't changed much...but i'm still holding up a very positive attitude towards the beginning for the year of the dog.
i want changes to happen this year...i know it will happen...i can feel it.
