clouded by the haze?

so much has happened...peat fires, hotspots over the island of sumatra, open burnings in home ground...all contributing to the ever increasing air pollution not to mention the haze that's currently blanking many parts of the nation. with such poor visibility, ones mind also tend to be "hazed".

have been attending classes (yoga of course) consistently...have been pretty strong about it and it feels good. but of late, the mind...it's just not tuning into the body. it doesn't seem to be listening...it feels like it has got a "mind" of its own. the head is telling me this but the heart is telling me otherwise. what has come to me?

of course, practiced a couple of supported head stands...hoping for the oxygen enriched blood to flood my brain to give it an extra boost of much needed oxygen after it has been so deprived of this vital breathe of life due to the haze. and apparently, it's not rushing there like how it's intended.

too many things in my mind. need to unwind...maybe a couple of 'ohms' to retune the mind and soul should do some good. or like abo likes to put it..."you need to get laid"...which is it?

the chocolate nation

i was told i am a caramel today. how pathetic...i hate caramel.

it seems that the human population can be grouped into different kinds of chocolate. what an insult to this devine piece of dessert. anyway, someone told me that indians are milk dairy (more like bitter dark to me, if i were to group them), chinese are caramels, whites are....white of course, africans are dark chocolate. and what about flavoured ones? there's the rum and raisin ones, the nutty ones, pralines, butterscotch and the list goes on of course.

whatever it is, if i were ever to be grouped into chocolates, i wanna be pistachio raisin dark chocolate...why? coz' i'm a bit nutty and sweet yet classic. hehehe. i hear a couple of "yeah right" coming. oh well...namaste.

abochan wrote the following for me...huggies abo.

"For Tash

Do not fret, do not frown. One time failure does not define your potential, rather it could be God or the Universe telling you that whatever you wished for, is not yours to have. I am sure that better things awaits you ahead. So pick up the pieces, put aside your disappointment and look forward to a much brighter journey with faith and optimism. The worst disservice you can do to yourself is to doubt your own capabilities. Soldier forth with confidence and you will see how the world opens up for you in ways you can never imagine, so beautifully, fabulously."

abochan

www.abocan.blogspot.com

p/s: ah pui, get well soon.

i failed...

went through months of torment to be told i did not make it...sigh. i dunno how i'm feeling right now. i just cannot describe it. it's a bit of dissapointment and a hint of sadness...what can i do? nothing...i just gotta move on. i really don't know how i feel...there's just so much mix emotions right now. anger, dissapointment, sad, pathetic...

to gil with love

i had the opportunity to play host to a very good friend of mine who came from hong kong...and along came another buddy of his from san francisco. boy was he a cutie. anyway, the three of us had great fun. drove up to menara kl (mind you, it was my first time up there, and did you know that locals as in malaysians get charge a different ticket price...without the audio tour guide...bummer) and realised...how gorgeous kl city was. it never daunt on me that our city was basked with so much greenery until seen from above.

anyway, we had great dinner, took the guys out for satay (for which they totally loved it) and followed by "kat chai suin mui", a kind of kumquat blended drink with preserved sour plum...and believed it or not, it was time to head home...of course, they put up with me for the night. as usual, being a good host, offered my best bottle of wine...chilian! i was told it was good wine...and being the cheap drunk, had a good glass and i was in "lala" land...or was i?

anyway, it was a good night. and gil, if you're ever reading this...it was a great nite. hugs.

the "holy" trinity?

have two friends coming over for cuppa tonite...both from two corners of the world. san francisco and hong kong. and the common connector between us three you may ask? what else? men of course...it's gonna be fun.

then again...i have the cleaning up to do after that...oh my goodness, sheets to change, glasses to wash, toilet to clean, floors to mop, pillows to fluff, not that fun after all.

i've ruptured something in my ear

oh no...went to the docs yesterday to get my ear checked out...and guess what. she says i may have ruptured the ear drum. i'm going deaf!!!!!


anyway, she says it's something minor, treat it with antibiotics first and have another look at it. if i ever go deaf!!! swear all of you...swear that you'll talk nothing but good things about me. :)

har? what? did you say something?

believe it or not...i think i have an ear infection. now i'm temporarily partial deaf on my right ear. everytime after i shower, there is this yellow liquid that's stuck in me ears and i gotta use a cotton bud to clean it. but in the morning when i wake up...i think the yellow liquid solidifies and i'm pretty deaf on my right ear. sucks!

no wonder my warriors are all out of balance...does it really make you wobble one side?